Reminder

Random thoughts come to my mind
Anytime, anywhere
Memories of a time in which everything was perfect
And as I had always wanted.

I know it is not wise to question fate, one would expect them to know better, and that in the end you see the grander picture and you get it... but in the mean time, everything feels so empty, pointless and difficult without him.

I had a beautiful life next to him... now void feels every corner and I just don't know what to do with it. I don't know what to do with this time that has been given to me...

This is not a good day... it has not been a good night... it will never be good again ('it' being whatever you want) until I find someone who fills this void again...

Or perhaps I should learn to fill it by myself... after all, everything leads me to being alone. Whenever I find someone, that someone slips away from me for unforseen reasons and situations that are out of my control.

Well, if I am to be alone, so be it... but at least, pay me a visit once in a while... never stop sending those subtle signs which remind me that you are waiting for me... that you've left my side only for my own good and for a short while (short compared to an eternity together).

I can do it all. I can make it through everything... but I will never make it on my own unless I am always reminded that you are waiting on the other side of the door.